I am working on becoming a confident person, and in general I'm quite laid back. But whenever I get into a situation that I deem to be confrontational my body starts trembling/shaking uncontrollably. It's usually focused in the hands but extends to the rest of my body. It makes me feel weak as a person, to know that my body is deeply disturbed by minor confrontations.
When I was younger I avoided anything that was remotely threatening. I simply could not handle people in my face, hacking away at my self esteem. I was so scared. Now that I am out of my teen years I have grown a lot as a person and thought that I should move beyond this.
These days I can stand in someones face, look them in the eye and argue back for what I know is right. But then my body starts to tremble and I feel weak. Not weak physically, but weak as a person. I fear that other people can see it. I fear the person that I am engaged in the confrontation will not respect me as I am visibly(although not emotionaly) threatened by their demenour. The shaking undermines every word uttered from my lips.
It is said that the more you try to hold it in, the worse the shakes get, so you are supposed to let it go. However I resist letting go because it not only goes against my mental/physical conditioning and takes a lot of willpower, but I think I'll start shaking as a mad man, and then what? Will I start crying? Will everyone pity me for growing up to be a pussy? No, I can't do that.
Has anybody else dealt with this and what did you do to cure the shakes?
When I was younger I avoided anything that was remotely threatening. I simply could not handle people in my face, hacking away at my self esteem. I was so scared. Now that I am out of my teen years I have grown a lot as a person and thought that I should move beyond this.
These days I can stand in someones face, look them in the eye and argue back for what I know is right. But then my body starts to tremble and I feel weak. Not weak physically, but weak as a person. I fear that other people can see it. I fear the person that I am engaged in the confrontation will not respect me as I am visibly(although not emotionaly) threatened by their demenour. The shaking undermines every word uttered from my lips.
It is said that the more you try to hold it in, the worse the shakes get, so you are supposed to let it go. However I resist letting go because it not only goes against my mental/physical conditioning and takes a lot of willpower, but I think I'll start shaking as a mad man, and then what? Will I start crying? Will everyone pity me for growing up to be a pussy? No, I can't do that.
Has anybody else dealt with this and what did you do to cure the shakes?
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